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Name: ju
Birthday: 9/21/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: spirituality, music, volleyball, autumn and crunching leaves, the beach, good books, naps, new clothes, sunsets and moonrises, philosophy, How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days, Sweet Home Alabama, long car rides, great friends, cheesecake factory, fireplaces, covertibles, cuddling, silky sheets, flips flops, dark chocolate, things that smell good, long phone conversations, my family, starbucks cinnamon dulce lattes, tim green, SMT '06, and of course my wonderful boyfriend:) (it's cuz he's in a band...)
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1/21/2004
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| well, today is my birthday. i'm still a baby tho. kevin has officially left me in the under aged dust. he's in florida today, which is sad, but we had our real birthdays last weekend. and it was wonderful. i couldn't possibly want anything more...except maybe to have him here now  in fact, no one is here...lol everyone is busy so i'm alone for now, which is not a good feeling when you're wanting to be with people you love...but the good news, i got off of work, and get to spend the rest of the evening with the mads girls eating super fat food and watching european movies and getting to know each other. sounds amazing.
in non-birthday news. life is hectic. goodness gracious. i'm finally getting a second to breathe right now and i seriously don't know what to do with myself...i think this is an issue...it's called the inability to relax...i feel like all i ever do is homework, go to class, go to work, go to other work, practice, eat, and sleep...sad, but there's so many good things...being in mads again, having people i love close and much more accessible--although now i don't really have the time to spend with them...lol i guess it's just part of being a student, and i can't really complain. i love being busy. and like i said, i don't know what to do with myself when i'm not. I just wish that i could get ahead and stay ahead and then have some time to spend with a couple of special someones.
that's the update. the end.
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| summer is coming to a close and i'm very disappointed!  i'm not ready for this life of independence and plain summer fun to end. i'm not ready to stop making money. i'm not ready to stop eating my own food (and for that matter start eating caf food again). i'm not ready for the weekday couple to retire (i love my ashley). i'm not ready to live with people again lol i love living on my own and having my own space and paying all my bills and just feeling independent and like i can actually make it on my own i love having a taste of life after/outside of school, but i suppose it's not fair to say i'm not ready at all for school to start. this year is going to hold awesome things! i'm so excited about mads and EUROPE and school and my senior recital and living with tash and being able to actually see my boyfriend again...sometimes...alright slightly more often than i do now lol this year will require big decisions for the future, lots of hard work, and hopefully a little character growth...we always want that don't we? i don't know that i have many more reflections. i'm in mississippi one more time to visit my family before i start school again and trying to get as much sun as possible. i believe that's the end. i really am looking forward to seeing all of you come back again.
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| the verdict about my cooking on a budget has come in and it's not so favorable for me....lol i have now switched to salad and fruit...a more expensive but definitely more reliable option...not to mention i don't have to do dishes in my possessed sink! i swear maintenance hates me...i'm not kidding, i've had them fix i believe 6 things since i moved in less than a month ago, and i almost called one of them at home last night...first the whole pipe came apart and flooded my kitchen...so after i cleaned up that mess and they fixed it, the very same night skank nasty water from who knows where started filling both sides of the sink rapidly...michelle fite did not answer her phone and has still not called me back (of course) i tried walking down to maintenance...they were locked up and gone home for the night and my only option was to call security who in turn was getting ready to call one of the maintenance guys at home to get him to come rescue me from my sink overflowing all over my apartment. of course the second that i got off the phone with security i went to check the situation and the sink was draining just as unexpectedly as it started filling up...so maintenance was not called (i'm sure he will thank me for that) and my sink is now fixed...but seriously how many things could possibly go wrong with the plumbing in one apartment? on another note, i went on a little adventure today--an alone adventure--and i learned some truths i already knew but to a different degree: that the condition of the neighborhood we live in is really sad, and that trevecca seriously is a small world. I decided to walk over to the cemetery on lebanon pike because it looks absolutely gorgeous and i'm seriously aching to go exploring there. i love old cemeteries. i know that might sound morbid to some, but ever since i lived in pennsylvania i have fallen in love with these picturesque old cemeteries and discovered that they are really very romantic and friendly and peaceful and inviting...especially since no one else seems to think so and i usually have them all to myself. but anyways back to the story. i set out walking across campus and then out onto murfreesboro rd. i decided to walk because there is nowhere to really park and explore in a cemetery. about 5 steps off of campus i had already been honked at and yelled at twice and honestly was really really wanting to embrace my surroundings and not be afraid, to exude confidence, and i probably only succeeded at looking stuck up and like i didn't belong, but it was hard. it's hard to be treated as an objet rather than a human being...how can anybody really embrace that? i ran out in front of traffic to feel even more a part...lol and ended up not making it all the way to lebanon...i couldn't help thinking about what my dad and kevin and my brother would say if they knew that i was walking alone in that neighborhood...broad daylight or not. i decided to divert instead to a different cemetery...one a little closer to home that i think a lot of people don't even realize exists. it's called mt ararat cemetery and it was the first african american cemetery in nashville, founded in the 1800's. i hopped the fence and went exploring, and it was enchanting in this really old historical sort of way...the oldest grave i found was from 1904...i found a baby who only lived to be a month and 10 days old...i found a man who died only 6 days ago...and i found countless soldiers who died in battle, all under the age of thirty...many my age. i also found a disappointing lack of epitaphs...i honestly couldn't find any personal ones at all. i found that everyone in this little section who died in 1938 had the epitaph "AT REST" on their tombstone or "GONE BUT NOT FORGOTTEN" which really tells me nothing about their lives. that's one of the most interesting parts of old graveyards, but it was still so much fun to walk over the overgrown hills and be in the shade of enormous old trees with clingy vines. i wish more of the world was that beautiful...it was straight out of the secret garden. but my discovery about the small world of trevecca...when i started walking back i heard a car pull up to me and stop, so i started getting really scared then realized it was a girl from trevecca who i recognized as being rachel and i knew she is married to ivan and lives in terrace...all this and no joke i've never spoken to her before in my life, but she recognized me and probably knew my name and everything about me and stopped and offered me a ride back...lol would that happen anywhere else? you're walking randomly down a street in the ghetto and someone you've never talked to before but you go to school with offers you a ride...interesting day... kevin comes home tonight after being gone for two straight weeks. its been sad, but now he'll be back for a day and that's really nice | | |
| these past couple of weeks have been a little crazy...but just a little...
i was home for the summer in Mississippi, and i was planning on staying there the whole summer and working and making money and spending time with my family and not seeing kevin or ashley or tash or dana but having the main focus be working...
well surprise surprise...i couldn't find a job for the summer there although people did constantly remind me that it should be easy...EVERYONE'S hiring...lol yes that made me feel really good about my inability to land any one of those, but i know that everyone meant well and the old people there really are precious...
after one of the hardest decisions i've ever made, i landed back here...in nashville...and i'm staying for the rest of the summer in an apartment on campus virtually to myself. my roomie renae is traveling all summer with kevin, only to return for the weekends (polar opposite from the rest of this year). but i'm here with ashley which is so incredible...it's such a relief, and poor girl i've been smothering her to death this week...we've spent so much time together lol but we (meaning just ashley) have fixed up the apartment and decorated it to make it nice and homey and feminine for renae when she comes back on the weekend...so the verdict will be reached tonight whether or not she likes what we've done.
i went job hunting and interviewing 2 days this week and have 3 and a half job offers lol night and day from my most recent job hunting experience...but i'm pretty sure i'm going to be working at rainforest cafe...with 20 other people from trevecca...it's honestly not what i envisioned myself doing this summer, but i'm really excited about it...it sounds like a dream really...apparently they will work me any amount of hours that i do or don't want to be worked, the sidework is nothing compared to what i'm used to, only 4 table sections, and managers that are awesome and are there to help you...sounds awesome to me...lol so we'll see how it works out...i'm very hopeful...
i get to see kevin tonight for the first time in almost a month...i'm ecstatic! he's a cool boy to be around and i've missed him...dana's chillin at my place this weekend too...and i think that's about the end of the update...o yea except that now that i'm living on my own i'm having to live off of my own cooking...it hasn't been too terrible yet...after 5 days...lol we'll see what i think about that after another week or two. hope everyone's having a great summer!
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| so, it was the mon-o that had me down and out...i'm feeling a lot better now, as long as I stay rested...which is virtually impossible, but i'm trying. spring break was incredible...perhaps the best week of my very short life thus far. And things are different--better--since we get back...I like it This past weekend tash, dana, kevin and I made the 8 hour trip to Biloxi...the weekend from hell...but we somehow came out of it having fun and just enjoying being together... too much excitement for a sickling...lol side note--does anyone else ever feel like they're too young to be making grown up decisions? | | |
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